When Paco and I first found out we would be parents, gender wasn't an issue. We didn't feel the pressure of needing a certain sexed baby until we had two girls at our house.
When we found out Wesley was a boy, I remember breathing a sigh of relief and saying "Oh, good. The pressure is off now!"
Three years ago today, I was sitting in my bathroom sobbing big crocodile tears. I was 42 weeks and 5 days pregnant with my third baby. And he wasn't showing any signs of "progress" as far as labor was concerned. Everyone kept telling me that babies "come when they're ready", but that offered me nothing. Regardless, he had less than 48 hours to debut before my midwife would induce him - and me - and perform a scheduled birthday.
My contractions started that night at midnight on the dot. Just after 5 am, Wesley Pax was born. The only boy at our house, he made his daddy proud.
I've watched this soon-to-be man grow in both stature and favor with man, and I'm praying that soon- one day very soon- I'll see His favor in the sight of God far surpass my own.
Wesley is a hand full. He is full of energy from sun up to sun down. Sometimes long after sun down. He is sensitive and emotional, and can turn into a basket case over the smallest of things. He is genuine and honest and always willing to tattle on one of his sisters.
But I have watched his weakest areas, and can already see how God can and will groom him to become a man with such gentle-man like attributes.
His sensitivity will be a great asset for loving his wife and children one day. He will understand their heavy emotions on the best and worst of days. He will no doubt rejoice and mourn with those he loves, when appropriate.
His honesty- as Wesley means "fields of honesty"- has proven to be a chore at two years old. But at 12 and 22, and all the way to his gray-haired days of 62, I know it will be a highly desired characteristic not readily available. He will be loyally truthful to a fault.
His nature that cries and whines at the smallest of things will prove to be a strength, when he is broken before the Lord and completely undone with emotion. Emotions that no doubt the Holy Spirit will bring about. When sin or simply sitting in the presence of Jesus take place, Wesley will easily be moved to a place of brokenness. And as a mother, my blessing will certainly be seeing a child of mine, in such a position. Because I know that a heart that is contrite and broken is what God longs for in Wesley.
As Wesley turns three tomorrow, I'm reminded of the best and worst moments we've shared so far. Time has flown by, and yet passed all too quickly. The saying "the days are long but the years are short" carries immense understanding when living with my Wesley. He has been the most difficult child to raise in the sense that he talked so much later than the girls ever did. It made communicating his needs and wants nearly impossible, and a daunting chore at best. He was and is still relentless in defiance. His sisters often required one or two stern warnings, and Wesley has required much more than that to see little improvement in his behavior.
This summer has been a milestone though. He has expanded his vocabulary, and can clearly tell us what his deepest desires are and his greatest concerns. He has been potty trained, moved from a crib to a regular twin-sized bed, and can count up and down in both Spanish and English.
As a mom, I hope and pray I can instill Godly principles into this man I've been graced to raise in my care. When I look into the future and span the horizons of his coming years, the task of raising a well-mannered, God-fearing, strong and skilled man, husband, friend, and father, seems such a lofty goal. But I rest assured knowing the perfect Strong, Skilled, Lover, Friend, and Father God is my source in the journey.
Today, as you're reading, pray for Wesley. Pray that he becomes all God has prepared for him. Pray that He is a true follower and disciple of Christ- and not a religious, hypocritical, and legalistic "church goer" set in self-righteousness. Pray that the Holy Spirit would arrest his heart at a young age, to be made into the image of Christ and that he is characterized by disliking to lost to make more disciples.
Pray for me. That as his momma I would have the grace and strength and patience needed to carry out the day-to-day child-reading of a three year old boy. That I would trust Wesley's care to the plans of God, and send Wesley out as a man of integrity in the years to come; be it to school, the workplace, or his own home with his own family. Pray that every parenting opportunity would be seized with both power from God and wisdom from His Spirit.
If you know Wesley Pax, you know how easy he is to love. How easy it is to want to squeeze him to death, or just have a conversation with him. As his momma I've had the privilege of seeing this sweet boy's smile every morning new for the last three years, and I hope and pray it continues for many more. Happiest birthday wishes to you Wesley Pax. You are a gift, and a sweet one at that. Your momma loves you, and your daddy and sissies too- but our love could never equate or come close to the love that God has for you. Happy 3rd birthday big Hause!
For those of you who haven't had the pleasure of seeing Wesley every day for the last three years- but specifically recently as he turns three- here's a list of Wesley's favorite things, funniest moments, and recent milestones to be remembered:
- when pregnant with Wesley, Paco asked what I thought he would look like. Obviously, I had zero knowledge of the answer, and the same amount of control- but I told him if I could pick, I would have a boy with blonde surfer hair and big blue eyes. With Paco as my husband, you know that's a far-fetched dream. But God is the fulfiller of dreams and the Master creator who gave me all my heart ever desired in those seemingly trivial moments! God is so good, and gives such good gifts to His kids!
- Wesley's favorite phrases right now are: "pet the pooch!" (A line from beauty and the beast which his sisters relentlessly make him watch.) "Yeah me too!" (My favorite is when I say "Wesley I think you're so handsome!" To which he replies "yeah me too!") "I'na close da gate!?" (His almost-three-years-old way of asking if he can close the baby gate for me.) "Ok I'na cannie? OK? OK." (His asking for candy and declaring it OK to everyone else after using the potty successfully!)
-Wes's current favorite foods include spaghetti, pizza, dinner rolls, any kind of juice, broccoli, and Despicable Me Gummies.
-Wesly's favorite movies as of now, are Big Hero 6, Despicable Me (1 & 2), The Toy Story Trilogy, any of the Superbook DVD stories, and "da wiiiitch!!!" As he calls it- which is Snow White to most people, but he picked up on the witch part when McKenna called out the old lady once.
-Wesley is taller than most kids his age.
-He loves to swim, ride the scooter, jump from high heights, and use the iPad.
-Currently, Wesley is a push over to the smallest person in our home: Adalynn Mei. She will steal his sippy cup, steal his toys, or use her tiny hands to touch him, and Wesley screams in terror and shrinks back with giant tears. He has yet to realize he is almost three times her size.